The Test...

I took the 100 question test yesterday. It was something that I attempted to think... WTH will they be asking, but I never ever thought of the items that they DID ask. LOL!!! I survived... even after having a migraine so bad the night before that it put me down. I asked how I would know if I passed it... and he told me that out of the 3 canidates, that the computer would score the tests... and then pass the information off to him. He would then call either last night or this morning... to only one person to offer them the job.

Well.....................

While sitting here yesterday afternoon at work... my cell phone went off. I didn't recognize the phone number because of the area code... but I answered it any way.

It was................. HIM!!! Offering me the job!!! OMG............ :O :O :O :O I really wasn't sure how this was going to turn out. I knew that stepping up to the plate... that it could be a change, but I was going to be me... and see how it turned out. I told him that I needed to think on it. His voice just FELL!!!! He gave me the evening to think... so around 8 pm... I called him back and told him that I would love to be part of their team. I really think that he thought that I was not going to go forward.

BUT... after talking to both owners face to face last night.... they are calling a meeting to try to change my hours to get me to stay. This really isn't a hasty decision... although it might seem that way. I have been looking for something that would give me long range benefits... and this job would be that way. I would be part of a big group... but still running the office on my own like I am here. The times that I've been there... I did feel 'at home'.

So... I'm not sure what will take place... but they are going to 'try'.

Alright ORNERY!!!!

After about 2 minutes of meeting her... I can SOOOOOOO understand why you left Wyoming and left her there. LOL!!! Yep... this is quite the ornery joke... and I'd have to say that YOU did get in the last word. ;-) I love you Bill... and I will never forget how last Friday... you got in the 'How's ornery doing..??' before I could. I even told you that... it wasn't fair. LOL! We had a good hearted laugh. That is a memory that I will hold close to my heart for the rest of my life. So ornery... you certainly pulled a good one on me. I am sure that your up there laughing. Love you... Rest in peace...

Well...

now I'm pretty convinced that this IS... the job for me. :) :) I'm past round two... now to pass round three... which is a 45 to 1 hr test. Cory... the manager that I just met with said to not take the test personally if I do not pass... that it is a tough test. He said that he wouldn't be sure even if he would be able to pass is himself now. LOL!!! I told him... that if I don't pass it... then it's not meant to be. He kind of smiled and said "Yes... that is one way to look at it." He was more indepth on what he wants... considering he would be my only boss. He said that he wants somebody to run the office for him... to actually organize and take orders from. Gosh... I'd love that job. :) :) He seemed VERY open to working the schedule around my girls. THAT... in itself MADE MY DAY!!! Not that I can't do that here... but it's just different with the doors being closed when I'm gone. Now... to take the test and then if I am offered the job... if I decide to leave.

I feel that I have guidance from above... right now. That somebody pretty special is guiding me to this job. I have a lot of things to keep in mind... so this is NOT an easy decision. I am very open minded actually.

AND... the test is scheduled for tomorrow (Friday) at 2:30 pm. Yes... the funeral is tomorrow morning... and Cory said that if my mind is not all clear... to call and he would understand and reschedule. He wants me to have THE best chance at the job. Oh... and as soon as I walked in... he said "Let me tell you this... if you impressed Brad... as you did... and as QUICKLY as you did... you must be one heck of a person... " THAT... made my day. Brad and I did hit it off great. I can seriously see myself in that position for YEARS... to come. :D :D :D

The interview...

went VERY well. Brad (the HR) employee was AWESOME!!! I felt very comofortable... and very relaxed. I figured... what is the worst..?? So... he asked me what my schedule was for the next interview with the manager of the plant. I told him that I was returning to my other job, but would be off for the funeral tomorrow. He asked me if I would be able to fit in an interview today still... and from that point... he used his cell phone and the interview is at 12:15 TODAY :O :O :O :O Yep... I'm headed for round two. LOL!!! I'm pretty excited... and very relaxed at the same time. I'm still NOT convinced that this IS the job for me... considering it is part time... but it would allow me more time with my girls... and I would not have the issue of trying to find jobs to make sure that I have employment here. It will be... if it is right.

I'll edit... on how things go. Brad told me what the next step would be... so I will know if Cory (the manager) likes me or not. LOL!!!

Last night...

was our family viewing from 7 to 9 pm.

I was able to get all of the girls together... drop Miranda off at softball practice and then return home for a bit to get the girls' clothes picked out for Friday. While at home... for some odd reason, I grabbed the cordless phone. My cell phone was charging... so I had it instead. The phone rang... and it was................................ the supervisor scheduling interviews for the job that I put my application in for last week. :O :O :O So............ with everything else going on.... I also have a job interview tomorrow morning at 9:30 am here in town. I'm a bit nervous, but there isn't really anything I can do to prepare... so I will do my best. That is the only thing I can do. I will try to keep you posted on how I feel afterwards. I usually have a pretty good idea of how things will go.

Then... it was off to the school park... and then a quick bite before arriving at the mortuary. The girls and I got there... and the boys finally arrived around 7:45. :S :S :S Bill looks very much at peace. They did a very good job. The little girls were very comfortable with him and did a lot of 'touching'. I just sat back and watched. At 9 pm... I headed out and returned the little girls. Miranda and I had some good talks then. She's one smart girl.

Today... viewing is from 9 am to 9 pm... and also on Thursday. I will be at work both of these days... except for the time during the interview tomorrow. I am going to teach one of my classes tonight... but my SIL will teach the other. I don't have the energy right now for that one. I need to get out and back into a routine though... and considering they canceled my class on Monday... my people need to have me there, and I need to be there too.

Day one...

is over now. Yesterday was pretty much a blur. Deb went with me to get a new outfit out of town... and we had some good times during that 3 to 4 hour break. It was nice to laugh... and have somebody next to me... that truly understands my feelings as well as she does. To you Deb... I can never repay you EVER for what you do for me.

Today... Steve & Mark went to the church and made some arrangements. Steve got Bill's suit from the cleaners and brought it to the funeral home. The funeral is Friday June 6th at 10 am. It's going to be a long week. My body is telling me that also. I was able to call florist and tell them to go ahead with the casket arrangement that Bill picked out himself. There were a few questions that needed to be answered... but all was well. Then... I proceeded to pick out our arrangement from the family. Steve told me that he wanted that done by me. I also needed to get one from here at work. So... never before in my life did I think that would be as easy as it was. I for THE perfect 'rugged ole' cross' and decided on the artificals to put on it. I am including 6 yellow sweetheart roses ... which will represent each of us and will be the only live flower on it. They will be able to be taken out and placed on his casket at the cemetary.

I hope that Steve agrees to have the arrangement put in our bathroom then on the wall. I know in my heart that it will be beautiful.

I have to add... that I am not sure about this. I need to think clearly on how to help to resolve this. Steve called to tell me that the procession will be as follows: Green Charger... our Red Charger.. and then the Harley's riding. I stopped and asked him if he was going to ride his Harley. He said "Yes... is that a problem." My heart just stopped. I told him... that "No... if he wanted to... I would back him up..." I just can't DO it though... as in drive our Charger. I need to mention to him... that I need a driver. I really hope that somebody volunteers to drive us in it. I'm pretty sure that Teresa and the boys will be in Bill's Charger... and the girls with me in ours, with Steve and Mark on the Harley's behind us...

Rest In Peace Bill...

We all love you very much. As of this morning at 7:03 am... Bill is at peace.

Just a quick recap.

Last Thursday night late, he was taken to the hospital because of his breathing. On Friday evening... he was allowed to go home. We (Steve and I) took him out to eat at Pizza Hut. As a surprise (to me too) his sister Pat from Wichita showed up. We had an enjoyable time. He was very much struggling. It was heart breaking... but now looking back, I would not trade that time for ANYTHING. NOTHING at all. To see the fear and unknown in Steve's eyes... was too much several times. You could tell that even after eating... Bill was struggling to stand and breathe.

On Saturday... prior to racing. Steve pointed out that his dad was slurring his words. We knew that his trouble on Friday was blamed to his heart and not the cancer. I thought that he might have had a stroke. That afternoon... his sister returned home.

On Sunday... we called to check on him. No answer... so we decided to 'make an excuse' to visit. We'd hate to show the concern you know... So... we brought him food. Bill was concerned about me seeing him in his underwear... (lol) so... I ran an errand and returned. I seen such a strong man... struggling so terribly. He had removed his oxygen at some time... and was gasping for breathe. While S was discussing things with his brother on the phone... I was massaging Bill's back and checking for a pulse. Nothing... it was just not there. I told him that I would do anything he needed me too... and he said "Things are just not right with me, they are not working right."

I had to run an errand... and S called to tell me that once Mark got there... that the ambulance was called. To continue with what I was doing... but to stay close to a phone. They admitted him and after a chest x-ray... discovered that his right lung was also full of the cancer. It was just a matter of time. I arrived around 4 pm. By 5:30... things were not good. He was in and out... and we were called in. We said the Lords Prayer... and called in a minister. Mark helped monitor his breathing pattern to help with the pain. It was over coming him. All of the family arrived and he was in and out.

Close to 11:30... I left for home. The boys were going to stay. I fell asleep around 3 am... and Steve called at 6:40. His breathing pattern had changed and he fell into a coma. I was hurrying... and as I was leaving the house ... my phone rang. The good Lord had called him.