So... as the life turns... or is that world.

Where have I been lately? I sit here asking myself... attempting to locate MYSELF. I'm seriously not sure where the time has been going. At times... I'm not sure even when looking in the mirror... WHERE I am. How SAD is that. :( :( :( I thank God every day though... for the girls'. I'm not sure honestly WHERE I would physically be... without them.

Life has been upside down... again. :(

I have expressed my feeling to some IRL friends... about how there are times that you seriously have NO IDEA... who you can trust. I'm at that stage. I know the two that I have talked to... that I CAN trust them. The others... I swear that my ESP is showing thru ... and I wouldn't trust them with my worst enemy. I sit wondering... are they out to GET me... or GET what I have. Life's games ... SUCK. Why is it... when you think you know somebody... that there is always something... or somebody that proves that differently?? I just don't understand it.

So... onto more details. I'm sure that there are some of you wondering more about what's going on. Well... I've decided that although I would LOVE to post more direct details... I just have that feeling that even with things being private... it would get back to 'get me' some how... some way.

Work - It's been a year now that I've been at UPS. I do enjoy my job, but it seems that I never have time to myself. How can this be... you ask?? Well... I'm not sure either. I am currently working the same 10 to 3:30 job... teaching 5 classes... but it just seems that times slips by and it's onto another day. I guess that's what happens when you get older... right?? 'rolling my eyes'

Miranda - What a girl!!! It's been an exciting year to say the least! In January... she got her own car and own school permit to drive. YES... she is ONLY 14!!! She's grown up into such a beautiful young lady. She did make the Cheer Squad in March... which has changed some of her schedule. She enjoys it, but the hard work at times takes away the fun of being a cheerleader. Last week was Cheer Camp. It was GREAT to go and see her perform all that they had learned. Of course I had to video it. :) :) :) She got an excellence ribbon FOR... SMILING!! OH yeah... that's my girl!!! She opted to not do softball this year... since she might get hurt and she'd hate to be injured for Cheer... so instead WHAT DOES SHE DO?????????... you ask?? She decides to race a sport compact car at the local dirt track. Yes... my girl at 14 is not only a cheerleader... but a race car driver! LOL!!! Who in the WORLD... would have ever thought this?? Now at times... that has most definitely been a challenge. (as I sit here... laughing to myself) Let's just say... it's not as easy as it looks. Just last night... she 'tagged' the concrete wall. Yeah... like going straight for it... and hit the passenger side nose of the car. Nothing like feeling your heart hit the top of the catwalk where your standing. :-0 All was well though... and after a few minor adjustments... she was back out for the A main feature. :)

Jaslin - Well... my girl is now 8 and going into 3rd grade. Doesn't seem possible.. but she is!!! She finished the 2nd grade class with flying colors and is headed into Mrs. Bunch's class in less than a month. She loves to organize and prepare for things. Gosh... I guess some of my qualities are there. ;) She played machine pit ball this summer and they got 3rd overall. This next week... she will be trying out for 8 and under traveling team. She's also trying out for competitive gymnastics. She LOVES it!!! She definitely has the early competitive edge compared to the others. Just last week she pulled out her 7th tooth, but this one she did ALL ON HER OWN!!! NO help of her nice big sister this time. :P

Amber - My baby girl is attempting to find herself, you could say. She knows WHAT she wants... and at times will not stop until she gets WHAT SHE WANTS!!! I have others telling me that she is 'finding herself'. Well, that would be fine... but where HAS SHE BEEN for the past 6 years then?? ROFL!!! There are times that I just have to sit back and go 'wow'... who would have EVER thought that she'd be doing that?? She did finish up Kindergarten and is VERY excited about 1st grade. She will have Jaslin's 2nd grade teacher this year... which is nice since I already know Miss Kirk. A dear friend of hers is not in her class this year - which without a huge explanation... might not be such a bad thing. ;) She too played ball this year, but it was the 5 to 6 year old T-Ball at the YMCA. There were nights of running since the girls were not at the same location... so next year they will either be at the same field - or probably not play. It was too hard... so I'm going to make some changes there. :) Oh... and as for the tooth?? Amber for the past 3 weeks... or so... has had 3 front bottom teeth. How can this be you ask?? Well... the permanent one was behind the front one's and had grown in ALL of the way. She had a dentist appt scheduled for Friday morning... and I'd been reminding her that he would probably 'take it out' if she didn't do it on her own. Sure enough on Wednesday... after playing all day at home with a friend, I asked her to show me her tooth. The tooth was dead and 'barely' hanging on. I used a washclothe and just 'rubbed' it out. I'm pretty proud of myself... I was able to do it without even getting sick myself! LOL!!! She was actually pretty amazed at the whole deal herself. We both had to look in the washclothe to make SURE it was there because it was such an easy deal. :) :) The dentist was very proud of her (us)... and now after checking early last night... we are now dealing with 3 bottom lower front teeth again. Ummm... yeah. The other lower front one is appearing down behind. Some days... ya just can't win!!! :P

My how the time does fly. I've been awake since 2:30. Let's see... now what???

Just random thoughts at first...

Let's see... on Wednesday July 22, 2009 ... after lost her first bottom right front tooth. On Thursday July 23, 2009 ... Miranda got her 2nd set of braces on ... and then on Friday July 24, 2009... Jaslin lost her 2nd tooth on the upper right side. I have to place this some where... so I can remember. ;)

What a week so far!!

Well... we were up around 4 am on Monday to allow us enough time to drive to the imaging clinic for Am's CT scan. Got there 'right' on time. She had to drink the specified amount of fluid... and then wait the 45 minutes... which turned into more than an hour. I was allowed to go into the room with her. They had to do an iv ... :( :( which turned into a terrible situation at the time. 'sigh'

We were told that they would have results within the day. The radiologist did make a comment that knowing Dr David... that he would be in touch soon. We left there and ate some breakfast close by. I was running late to work... so I called into say that I would be about 30 minutes late. Just as we were coming back into town... Am needed to use the restroom. You can only imagine that after not having anything for over 10 hours... then drinking ALL of that stuff... it was serious. I pulled over at the back of the mall and hurried in. During the time she was going... I looked at my phone ONLY... to realize that I'd missed a phone call from Dr David already. OMG... it had only been just over an hour. :O :O :O He left a message stating that he would call back because he was not going to leave these type of results on a record. :S :S :S Nice. I could have puked at that point.

I got Am back to school... discussed the situation with the teacher... and headed to work. Just as I was getting there. My phone rang. It was Dr David. He started by saying that he had some 'GREAT news... so far'. The image that the u/s gave that was a tumor... was actually that Am has a left kidney that is 'rotated'. The radiologist confirmed on the CT scan that it was only rotated. She does have some issues with her intestines which are then pushing ON the rotated kidney... which could be why she gets in such pain. He wants us to give her some med's... to help with that problem. He said that if it doesn't ease the pressure / pain... that there could possibly be a kink in that kidney with it being rotated. So... as of now... we are taking the med's and doing as Dr David has told us to do. She's such a trooper though. She still has that 'bite' at times... but hopefully this will do the trick and we can avoid more needles and scans for the time being.

Certainly makese a person appreciate their health... and their family. Thanks again for all of the prayers, texts, and calls. No words can express the feeling of prayer around us. :)

January 31st...

So... with the weather being as nice as it was... I decided that we were going to travel to Lincoln to see 'Hotel For Dogs'. We'd missed it in town... so we would do supper and then go there. Amber had a friend... and Jas' had one too. We left town around 5... to have supper at Red Robin. After getting 'thru' supper... only 4 trips to the bathroom with 4 girls... we headed off to the movie.

Got there in plenty of time... but had NO CLUE... what laid ahead of me. Thank GOD ... Steve went along. I can honestly say... that I made more than a dozen trips to the restroom. Jas and her friend was fine... but Am's tummy wasn't well... and then there was something definitely wrong with her friends also. :S :S :S

At one point... I was walking down the very long hallway to the bathroom... and Am doubled over in pain. :( :( :( I scooped her up to get her to the bathroom.

After the movie... we 'skipped' to the Durango... to only at that point figure out WTH was wrong with Jaycie (Am's friend). She's had an upperrespiratory cold... and started to cough... then spit up some of her supper. Oh boy...

Well... it was that point that I realized that she had drank milk for supper. Of ALLLLLL things. 'sigh' That's when... the milk made it's appearance. LOL! We made it to Shopko... to clean her up since it was in the parking lot of the mall that this all started. She felt a lot better... so I quickly started home. Within 15 minutes... we were pulled over. She lost her supper then. Oh dear... poor thing. I called her mom to explain where we were... and what had taken place. She felt so bad. I was honestly surprised that we didn't have all 4 girls puking... ROFL! Obviously it does make a difference when you have siblings. :P :P :P Jas' friend spent the night... and the house finally crashed at 10:30. WHAT ... a night. lol

The last 8+ journey with Amber.

In the middle of November... Amber started getting sick. No rhymnn or reason. Would vomit... no fever... nothing else... and then be fine. Yeah know though... it never occurred to me that this wasn't something 'going around'. How many times did I hear that... "Well... you know... there is a lot of stuff going around." :( :( :( I guess that is why... I decided to make the call any way. It was not just something going around. I know my daughter. The emergency room visit on New Year's Day... was enough to send me away. Then being fine... but complaining of her side hurting seemed to be the only thing again.

After some testing... it seems as though she has some abnormalities in her left kidney. We are unsure of what they are though. Monday morning we are having a CT scan done to eliminate some tumors... which are a huge concern of the pediatrician at this time. You have to keep in mind... that her brother did survive leukemia as a child. The pediatrician is not taking anything for granted... and wants answers now. I am supposed to know by noon - 1 pm on Monday.

Thanks for the prayers, texts, and calls. I feel very lost right now... but as I have told many... I know that I have a fighter on my hands because she has been thru hell and back already. God only gives us what he knows that we can take.

My... how life can change!

It's a week later... and nothing ever goes smooth... right?? YEP... not around here. Since the last time I posted... early the next morning... our building was broken into. The people have been back, although they never actually came to the house. It's been now a week since I had a good nights sleep. I'm tired of this CRAP!!! Seems as though now that they know WHAT is here... they have told others that they will be back. How nice! Another 2:30 am trip for some losers?? I certainly hope not. It's terrible when you don't really sleep... but also find yourself getting up and walking down the hall way or looking out the window to SEE if... there is somebody here. How the heck can people do this crap? As the old saying goes... if they strike once... they will do it again. Just WHEN ... will it be though. 'sigh' Doesn't help when you live on the 'hill' away from others also. How lovely!!

Well... we have another security system coming out to give us a quote on alarms and direct calls to the police station. When will it end..?? is my question. The new gun safe arrives tomorrow ... so atleast all of my jewelry can go in it also. Nothing like feeling like your living in a glass house.

Also... I dropped my ONLY phone in the tub... trying to relax the other night. Great timing... right?? So far... it seems as though I'm only missing a few options that I used to be able to do. Better than having nothing. OH... and if you EVER wondered?? A cell phone does NOT float WITH or WITHOUT a battery. It's more like a lead balloon!!! ROFLMAO!! Just a word to the wise... avoid contact with water. ;)

That's all for now... just the thought of everything makes me want to go back to where the girls are 2 stories above me. Until later. Good night!

Where... has the time actually gone??

O........ M.......... GOSH!!! I can't believe how many months it has been... since I was able to blog!!! Unreal!!!

Things have actually been fairly good... for the most part. The girls are all doing very well in school. We had a few bouts of sickness with Amber... but so far so good now. The girls are all enjoying their classes... and reading... reading... reading!!! They have really grown since the first of the school year.

This past Thanksgiving was a very relaxing one for us. S and I enjoyed it over at my brother and sil's house. I was able to put a sweet baby boy to sleep that night. Aww... to hold the sweet thing. :) :) THEN... the night was only beginning... since Deb and I were headed to stay the night in Lincoln... so we could POWER SHOP!!!!!!!! AND... I must say... that we did an AWESOME job of it! :D :D :D

This past Monday... was my baby Amber's 6th Birthday!!! WOW!!! I can't believe the time has went soooooooooo quickly!!! I do have a lot of new pictures to post... so maybe I can update one on here also. ;-)

Last night... between my two classes that I teach at the Y... I had some unsettling bad news about a dear friend. I am praying that things are confused at this point... but I will know for myself in the morning. I have yet to not think about her for one moment. This dear lady is like a mom to me. :( :( :(

Well.... off to upload some photos. Now... if I can only remember how to put them on here. LOL!