Trying to focus...

but it's so hard. I'm not sure where it would be best for me to even 'be' right now. I find myself just breaking down... nothing triggers it... it just happens...

S said last night that he couldn't get the sound and vision of his dad out of his mind last night. WHY... does life have to be this way??? It makes me want to just curl up and cry... some more.

I want to go and visit him, but I'm seriously not sure if I'm strong enough to do it. How bad... is that. :( :( And this darn headache just won't go away..... URGH!!!