Do I seriously CARE????

Umm... the answer would be NO. If you think that I'm going to feel sorry... take the blame ALL of the time... your seriously NUTS!!! There are issues that stem WAYYYYYYY back further than me. Don't you DARE try to pin point them on ME... since we got together... and as for the lying... kiss my BUTT!!!

Yeah... that's what my attitude is today. And... has been.

First off... YES... I guess you can BLAME me... that my daughter is old enough to have been able to drive when she's in 8th grade. SO FREAKN WHAT??? I mean... she has a job... washes her own clothes... CARES about others... and is very responsible. So... blame it on me.

As for the new TV... who ALSO cares... did I put a sign on it that states... "Only can be used by ..... these people??" Ummm... NO!!! It's not even within 2 floors of where my girls and I'm at... but Oh Yeah... that's MY fault too. Kiss it...

I deal with enough issues that I seriously don't have the time OR effort... to give a rats ass about these things. If somebody doesn't WISE UP... and FACE THE FACT that they ARE THE ONE'S to blame... then well... things are not good.

I have been literally on my own since 16... and I have learned that you can't get anywhere in life pointing the finger and accusing others of what your issues and problems are. It's not happening. So... I guess to end this...
AMEN to what I've said... Change is scarey... but most of the time it's just another chapter to the next book. :)

The past week...

I have realized on several occassions... why I divorced the girls' fathers. yeah... that is plural. :P

The last phone call had to do with 'somebody' seeing one of the girls in a pool that was closed. GEEZ!!! Like I had been at the place for 10 hours yesterday... and they were BOTH wading around in the kiddie pool. It's not like they were skinny dipping!!! I had even made a comment to one of my co-workers last night... that atleast they took after ME... and had their clothes on!! :) :) :) He of course LOL... not sure why. ;-P

Earlier... I was dealing with the 'race game'. This is how the game goes. Miranda asks if she can race... then after waiting 4 hours for a response... I then ask because HULLO... it's not like the car gets itself READY!!! Oh... and then he makes ME wait 45 minutes to say yes. The freaking games are CRAZY!!! It's POWER... which of course is a bunch of crap. Miranda even stated that she HATES the weekends that she's with him... and races. :( :( Those are things that she will remember for her lifetime. If he'd just get off of himself... and remember what makes her happy... things would be so much better.

As for me... things have been good. Yesterday was our UPS United Way Golf Tournament. If you truly know me... you realize that I'm NOT a golfer. No way... No can do... that would be me. So you ask... HTH did she get put in charge. Well... I guess it's my other skills because it's certainly NOT the golfing part!!! :) :) :) We did GREAT though! We earned so far over $2,200 towards United Way. I had a mailbox handpainted... and the proceeds from that have not been calculated yet. Which reminds me... I forgot to take a picture. :( :( GRRRR ... at myself. Any way... it will be nice to have my time back at work... to actually work for work! Did you follow that?? Hee Hee... I've neglected a lot of my normal duties. 5 1/2 hours is not enough time to organize AND work... :)

Let's see... this week is school pictures for the kids. I'm not sure what they have decided to wear... but I'm sure that Tuesday will BE a stressful day!! Always has been in the past. Next weekend is Labor Day... and the girls' will be gone. Not sure what that means for Steve and my schedule then. I'm hoping that we can go away... on the bike for atleast a couple of days. Who knows... we just might stay at home though and lock the doors and not leave too!! LOL!

Ok... the timer is going off. The banana bread is done... and the hamburger is cooking. I guess that my calling. Bye!!!

So... as the life turns... or is that world.

Where have I been lately? I sit here asking myself... attempting to locate MYSELF. I'm seriously not sure where the time has been going. At times... I'm not sure even when looking in the mirror... WHERE I am. How SAD is that. :( :( :( I thank God every day though... for the girls'. I'm not sure honestly WHERE I would physically be... without them.

Life has been upside down... again. :(

I have expressed my feeling to some IRL friends... about how there are times that you seriously have NO IDEA... who you can trust. I'm at that stage. I know the two that I have talked to... that I CAN trust them. The others... I swear that my ESP is showing thru ... and I wouldn't trust them with my worst enemy. I sit wondering... are they out to GET me... or GET what I have. Life's games ... SUCK. Why is it... when you think you know somebody... that there is always something... or somebody that proves that differently?? I just don't understand it.

So... onto more details. I'm sure that there are some of you wondering more about what's going on. Well... I've decided that although I would LOVE to post more direct details... I just have that feeling that even with things being private... it would get back to 'get me' some how... some way.

Work - It's been a year now that I've been at UPS. I do enjoy my job, but it seems that I never have time to myself. How can this be... you ask?? Well... I'm not sure either. I am currently working the same 10 to 3:30 job... teaching 5 classes... but it just seems that times slips by and it's onto another day. I guess that's what happens when you get older... right?? 'rolling my eyes'

Miranda - What a girl!!! It's been an exciting year to say the least! In January... she got her own car and own school permit to drive. YES... she is ONLY 14!!! She's grown up into such a beautiful young lady. She did make the Cheer Squad in March... which has changed some of her schedule. She enjoys it, but the hard work at times takes away the fun of being a cheerleader. Last week was Cheer Camp. It was GREAT to go and see her perform all that they had learned. Of course I had to video it. :) :) :) She got an excellence ribbon FOR... SMILING!! OH yeah... that's my girl!!! She opted to not do softball this year... since she might get hurt and she'd hate to be injured for Cheer... so instead WHAT DOES SHE DO?????????... you ask?? She decides to race a sport compact car at the local dirt track. Yes... my girl at 14 is not only a cheerleader... but a race car driver! LOL!!! Who in the WORLD... would have ever thought this?? Now at times... that has most definitely been a challenge. (as I sit here... laughing to myself) Let's just say... it's not as easy as it looks. Just last night... she 'tagged' the concrete wall. Yeah... like going straight for it... and hit the passenger side nose of the car. Nothing like feeling your heart hit the top of the catwalk where your standing. :-0 All was well though... and after a few minor adjustments... she was back out for the A main feature. :)

Jaslin - Well... my girl is now 8 and going into 3rd grade. Doesn't seem possible.. but she is!!! She finished the 2nd grade class with flying colors and is headed into Mrs. Bunch's class in less than a month. She loves to organize and prepare for things. Gosh... I guess some of my qualities are there. ;) She played machine pit ball this summer and they got 3rd overall. This next week... she will be trying out for 8 and under traveling team. She's also trying out for competitive gymnastics. She LOVES it!!! She definitely has the early competitive edge compared to the others. Just last week she pulled out her 7th tooth, but this one she did ALL ON HER OWN!!! NO help of her nice big sister this time. :P

Amber - My baby girl is attempting to find herself, you could say. She knows WHAT she wants... and at times will not stop until she gets WHAT SHE WANTS!!! I have others telling me that she is 'finding herself'. Well, that would be fine... but where HAS SHE BEEN for the past 6 years then?? ROFL!!! There are times that I just have to sit back and go 'wow'... who would have EVER thought that she'd be doing that?? She did finish up Kindergarten and is VERY excited about 1st grade. She will have Jaslin's 2nd grade teacher this year... which is nice since I already know Miss Kirk. A dear friend of hers is not in her class this year - which without a huge explanation... might not be such a bad thing. ;) She too played ball this year, but it was the 5 to 6 year old T-Ball at the YMCA. There were nights of running since the girls were not at the same location... so next year they will either be at the same field - or probably not play. It was too hard... so I'm going to make some changes there. :) Oh... and as for the tooth?? Amber for the past 3 weeks... or so... has had 3 front bottom teeth. How can this be you ask?? Well... the permanent one was behind the front one's and had grown in ALL of the way. She had a dentist appt scheduled for Friday morning... and I'd been reminding her that he would probably 'take it out' if she didn't do it on her own. Sure enough on Wednesday... after playing all day at home with a friend, I asked her to show me her tooth. The tooth was dead and 'barely' hanging on. I used a washclothe and just 'rubbed' it out. I'm pretty proud of myself... I was able to do it without even getting sick myself! LOL!!! She was actually pretty amazed at the whole deal herself. We both had to look in the washclothe to make SURE it was there because it was such an easy deal. :) :) The dentist was very proud of her (us)... and now after checking early last night... we are now dealing with 3 bottom lower front teeth again. Ummm... yeah. The other lower front one is appearing down behind. Some days... ya just can't win!!! :P

My how the time does fly. I've been awake since 2:30. Let's see... now what???

Just random thoughts at first...

Let's see... on Wednesday July 22, 2009 ... after lost her first bottom right front tooth. On Thursday July 23, 2009 ... Miranda got her 2nd set of braces on ... and then on Friday July 24, 2009... Jaslin lost her 2nd tooth on the upper right side. I have to place this some where... so I can remember. ;)

What a week so far!!

Well... we were up around 4 am on Monday to allow us enough time to drive to the imaging clinic for Am's CT scan. Got there 'right' on time. She had to drink the specified amount of fluid... and then wait the 45 minutes... which turned into more than an hour. I was allowed to go into the room with her. They had to do an iv ... :( :( which turned into a terrible situation at the time. 'sigh'

We were told that they would have results within the day. The radiologist did make a comment that knowing Dr David... that he would be in touch soon. We left there and ate some breakfast close by. I was running late to work... so I called into say that I would be about 30 minutes late. Just as we were coming back into town... Am needed to use the restroom. You can only imagine that after not having anything for over 10 hours... then drinking ALL of that stuff... it was serious. I pulled over at the back of the mall and hurried in. During the time she was going... I looked at my phone ONLY... to realize that I'd missed a phone call from Dr David already. OMG... it had only been just over an hour. :O :O :O He left a message stating that he would call back because he was not going to leave these type of results on a record. :S :S :S Nice. I could have puked at that point.

I got Am back to school... discussed the situation with the teacher... and headed to work. Just as I was getting there. My phone rang. It was Dr David. He started by saying that he had some 'GREAT news... so far'. The image that the u/s gave that was a tumor... was actually that Am has a left kidney that is 'rotated'. The radiologist confirmed on the CT scan that it was only rotated. She does have some issues with her intestines which are then pushing ON the rotated kidney... which could be why she gets in such pain. He wants us to give her some med's... to help with that problem. He said that if it doesn't ease the pressure / pain... that there could possibly be a kink in that kidney with it being rotated. So... as of now... we are taking the med's and doing as Dr David has told us to do. She's such a trooper though. She still has that 'bite' at times... but hopefully this will do the trick and we can avoid more needles and scans for the time being.

Certainly makese a person appreciate their health... and their family. Thanks again for all of the prayers, texts, and calls. No words can express the feeling of prayer around us. :)

January 31st...

So... with the weather being as nice as it was... I decided that we were going to travel to Lincoln to see 'Hotel For Dogs'. We'd missed it in town... so we would do supper and then go there. Amber had a friend... and Jas' had one too. We left town around 5... to have supper at Red Robin. After getting 'thru' supper... only 4 trips to the bathroom with 4 girls... we headed off to the movie.

Got there in plenty of time... but had NO CLUE... what laid ahead of me. Thank GOD ... Steve went along. I can honestly say... that I made more than a dozen trips to the restroom. Jas and her friend was fine... but Am's tummy wasn't well... and then there was something definitely wrong with her friends also. :S :S :S

At one point... I was walking down the very long hallway to the bathroom... and Am doubled over in pain. :( :( :( I scooped her up to get her to the bathroom.

After the movie... we 'skipped' to the Durango... to only at that point figure out WTH was wrong with Jaycie (Am's friend). She's had an upperrespiratory cold... and started to cough... then spit up some of her supper. Oh boy...

Well... it was that point that I realized that she had drank milk for supper. Of ALLLLLL things. 'sigh' That's when... the milk made it's appearance. LOL! We made it to Shopko... to clean her up since it was in the parking lot of the mall that this all started. She felt a lot better... so I quickly started home. Within 15 minutes... we were pulled over. She lost her supper then. Oh dear... poor thing. I called her mom to explain where we were... and what had taken place. She felt so bad. I was honestly surprised that we didn't have all 4 girls puking... ROFL! Obviously it does make a difference when you have siblings. :P :P :P Jas' friend spent the night... and the house finally crashed at 10:30. WHAT ... a night. lol

The last 8+ journey with Amber.

In the middle of November... Amber started getting sick. No rhymnn or reason. Would vomit... no fever... nothing else... and then be fine. Yeah know though... it never occurred to me that this wasn't something 'going around'. How many times did I hear that... "Well... you know... there is a lot of stuff going around." :( :( :( I guess that is why... I decided to make the call any way. It was not just something going around. I know my daughter. The emergency room visit on New Year's Day... was enough to send me away. Then being fine... but complaining of her side hurting seemed to be the only thing again.

After some testing... it seems as though she has some abnormalities in her left kidney. We are unsure of what they are though. Monday morning we are having a CT scan done to eliminate some tumors... which are a huge concern of the pediatrician at this time. You have to keep in mind... that her brother did survive leukemia as a child. The pediatrician is not taking anything for granted... and wants answers now. I am supposed to know by noon - 1 pm on Monday.

Thanks for the prayers, texts, and calls. I feel very lost right now... but as I have told many... I know that I have a fighter on my hands because she has been thru hell and back already. God only gives us what he knows that we can take.

My... how life can change!

It's a week later... and nothing ever goes smooth... right?? YEP... not around here. Since the last time I posted... early the next morning... our building was broken into. The people have been back, although they never actually came to the house. It's been now a week since I had a good nights sleep. I'm tired of this CRAP!!! Seems as though now that they know WHAT is here... they have told others that they will be back. How nice! Another 2:30 am trip for some losers?? I certainly hope not. It's terrible when you don't really sleep... but also find yourself getting up and walking down the hall way or looking out the window to SEE if... there is somebody here. How the heck can people do this crap? As the old saying goes... if they strike once... they will do it again. Just WHEN ... will it be though. 'sigh' Doesn't help when you live on the 'hill' away from others also. How lovely!!

Well... we have another security system coming out to give us a quote on alarms and direct calls to the police station. When will it end..?? is my question. The new gun safe arrives tomorrow ... so atleast all of my jewelry can go in it also. Nothing like feeling like your living in a glass house.

Also... I dropped my ONLY phone in the tub... trying to relax the other night. Great timing... right?? So far... it seems as though I'm only missing a few options that I used to be able to do. Better than having nothing. OH... and if you EVER wondered?? A cell phone does NOT float WITH or WITHOUT a battery. It's more like a lead balloon!!! ROFLMAO!! Just a word to the wise... avoid contact with water. ;)

That's all for now... just the thought of everything makes me want to go back to where the girls are 2 stories above me. Until later. Good night!

Where... has the time actually gone??

O........ M.......... GOSH!!! I can't believe how many months it has been... since I was able to blog!!! Unreal!!!

Things have actually been fairly good... for the most part. The girls are all doing very well in school. We had a few bouts of sickness with Amber... but so far so good now. The girls are all enjoying their classes... and reading... reading... reading!!! They have really grown since the first of the school year.

This past Thanksgiving was a very relaxing one for us. S and I enjoyed it over at my brother and sil's house. I was able to put a sweet baby boy to sleep that night. Aww... to hold the sweet thing. :) :) THEN... the night was only beginning... since Deb and I were headed to stay the night in Lincoln... so we could POWER SHOP!!!!!!!! AND... I must say... that we did an AWESOME job of it! :D :D :D

This past Monday... was my baby Amber's 6th Birthday!!! WOW!!! I can't believe the time has went soooooooooo quickly!!! I do have a lot of new pictures to post... so maybe I can update one on here also. ;-)

Last night... between my two classes that I teach at the Y... I had some unsettling bad news about a dear friend. I am praying that things are confused at this point... but I will know for myself in the morning. I have yet to not think about her for one moment. This dear lady is like a mom to me. :( :( :(

Well.... off to upload some photos. Now... if I can only remember how to put them on here. LOL!

Kittens & Cats

So... since May ALL I have heard about when it comes to the 8 kittens that we are blessed with... is negative information from Steve. Yep... they do everything wrong. Like... I'm the one controlling it. HARDLY!!! I'm the one caring for them... trying my best to find GOOD homes for them. So... after getting rid of 3 of them... needing to get rid of atleast two more... I find a home today for one that the girls loved. Terrible of me?? No... not really because we know of who she was going home too and the kitten (Baby Blue) will be inside for her life. She has it made! Well... the girls were ok with it... only because like I said... they know the family. Meanwhile... I go and get Ella scheduled to be spayed this Friday. I also filled out a form since the other mom's are wild... to get assistance for them. I mentioned at supper that Baby Blue has a new home. WTH do I hear... you ask??? Oh yeah... "I liked that one..........." Nice. We all did. She was cute AND funny... but would you rather have homes for them so they are not doing all of the nasty stuff I constantly heard about... or have them doing it?? Mean while... I had a call from another lady I know that lost their indoor cat this past weekend. She is coming Friday night to look at the others. By Sunday... we should be down to 3 only. Yep again... I hear... well, don't let her take Buttercup. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR Would you rather have a kitten/cat living outside fighting the cold... or her living inside with a loving family. Just BURNS my BUTT!!! Sue will get to pick which ever one... I am NOT going to tell her which one she can take. Not gonna happen. Sorry... but I am the one that has been caring for them these months. I love them all dearly. I'm thinking of THEM... not of myself. Oh yeah... and as we are going to supper 'BT' decides to leave the garage... and now he won't come back in. :( :( I can't even find him. 'sigh' I have went outside several times... but still can't find him. I just don't know what to think ... or where he would be. But... do you blame him?? Steve won't let him in the house... so he lives in the garage... yeah... nice and warm in Nebraska right now. :( :( Poor guy. :( :(

Sturgis 2008

Yep... we just returned. Here is a recap of the week:

Monday... worked @ UPS & then taught my one stability ball class @ 4:30 - 5:15 @ the Y. Headed home... took a quick shower and was on the road by 6:15 pm. Arrived in Grand Island around 8:45 pm and ate at Red Lobster. Decided to stay there that night.

Tuesday... left for Deadwood SD around 8:15 am. Arrived into Deadwood around 4:30. Unloaded the bike and went to the room. We decided that we were not goin to the Lynard Skynard concert... so we headed South to Hill City. Our 'hard bread' (lol) restaurant had a 1 1/2 hour wait... so we decided to have BBQ instead. A storm started to roll in... so we waited for about 45 minutes to go back. The trip is 45 minutes when the weather is good. It was dark... and the fog was bad. I told S that according to my radar on my phone... NOW was a good time. Obviously since 'we' were the LEADER OF THE PACK!!! Yes... about 10 bikes followed us out on the road... around the narrow winding two lane road. Pitch black with TERRIBLE fog. I prayed several times to get us home safe. When we arrived to the 't' road... I gave him a big hug and told him thank you for bringing ALL of us home safe. As we pulled into the hotel parking... one of the other bikers even said "Thanks man for bringing us home safe..." :O We warmed up with hot chocolate that night. :)

Wednesday... We left to go the beautiful scenic route west and north of Lead. LOVE that area. We arrived into Sturgis then in the afternoon. Made some friends at 'Loud America'... had a few drinks... did some shopping... and headed back.

Thursday... we left early after having breakfast we headed out for Sturgis. We went to 'Buffalo Chip' to be able to go to the Sugarland & ZZ Top concert. We enjoyed some quiet time listening to bands and watching others. The concerts were GREAT!!! ZZ Top was AWESOME!!! It was VERY early Friday morning when we arrived to the hotel.

Friday... Got up around 10:30 am and went and had breakfast. Left to head to 'Full Throttle Saloon'. That place had really changed in a year. Rachel Stacy was playing... which was a real treat. BEAUTIFUL voice!!! We headed back into Sturgis and did the final shopping. S got some really cool patches for his vest. We ended up at the 'Broken Spoke' and listened to 'Toys' for awhile. MAN... what another great group!!! Anything from Bon Jovi... to ZZ Top... they knew it AND... could play it. Nice end to the day. We decided that we wanted to load the bike and enjoy the rest of the evening in Deadwood. We found a place to load it... and while I was attempting to hold the bike... I got my leg burned on the pipes REALLY bad. The words rolled out of my mouth. DARN... it's gonna leave a scar. I guess now you can say I got a 'tatoo' in Sturgis. :S :S :S We headed to the Four Aces to eat steak & crab leg buffet... only to find out that they had a 2 hour wait. So... we got the beeper and decided to eat ice cream before our supper. ROFLMAO!!! Hey... we were on vacation. :) We returned only after 1/2 hour. LOL!!! I learned then for the next 1 hour plus ... to play video poker. ;-) We enjoyed that time. Supper was awesome... and we called it a night around midnight.

Saturday (today)... I set the alarm for 5 am. Ya know... there was racing back home we were getting up for. So... we left Deadwood by 6 am... only to find out hours into the trip home... that there were storms that canceled the races. URGH!!!! So... we decided to take our time getting home then. 45 minutes away... we called Pizza Hut and had pizza waiting for us at 7 pm here at home. I'm doing laundry... and ready to crash.

Oh yeah... I have to add that I decided that since I was going to miss some classes... that I was going to run while in Deadwood. Let's just say... unless your mountain climbing... there is only walking allowed in that town. ROFL!!! BUT... I did walk Wednesday and Thursday morning. What a workout actually. :) :)

Good night... I'm headed to catch up on some MUCH needed sleep... :)

So... what will it be??

I got a text message this morning from the one boss saying that he didn't have a good feeling about the new gal. I was like WTH... so I told him that no... things were fine - that I'd received a text from her last night. He said that he didn't think that it was good. Next thing... I get a text from him saying that he receive the text saying that she's not coming there. I'm like ... your making me very nervous WHO are you talking about?? Around 11 this morning... I found out that the gal backed out. You HAVE to be kidding me!!!! URGH!!!

So... I called workforce again. I was nearly in tears. I asked her... "WTH can a person apply for a job... get the job... and then NOT take the job???" She was speechless. She tried to reassure me that we would find someone. BUT... WHEN???

That is when... I started to think. Is God testing me?? He only gives me what I can handle... but is this a lesson. Just to show me that yes... I could get another job... but to also show me what I am worth at Building Tech?? I would never and the guys' would have never known what I was worth... until I left there. So... now what is the next step??

Do I... 1) Ask them to make me an offer to go back?? or... 2) Do I make up an offer and ask them if they will go for it?? I have never been in this position before. I have always worked and worked... and never really have had anything to show for it. I am still very 'caught' on what I will do. I do like my job... it is taking some getting used to... between all of the having to prove in my life - life has always been a challenge for me. I have a lot of 'what if's' to look at. Life is not always easy. I felt guidance from above to get my job... but now I feel like I'm hanging off of a cliff. It's not an easy position to be in. 'sigh'

Life is insane...

Most of the days lately... I could just sit and cry, but what good is that going to do?? NOT a darn thing. So... suck it up and God only gives you what you can handle... right?? Well... I do question it quite a bit lately.

Let's see... in looking back the last month... I quit one job 'planning' (what a funny word...) to be able to spend more time at home. Well... since then... it's turned into more work than what I ever in my furtherest dreams... would have thought.

Yep... I trained the gal... would get phone calls all of the time - hey, have no problem until I figured out... she was NOT getting it. Even with the help that I was giving... the additional notes, I was still finding stuff. I started to explain to the guys' that this is NOT good. They too expressed their concerns. That is when... I didn't hear from her. So... no news is good news, right?? Not with this gal. The books were a MESS!!! So... not only was I going there in the evenings... getting phone calls during the day... spending my weekends there... but she wasn't following out ANY tasks. The bills were 2 weeks late... no receivables were billed. OMG... WTH is she doing?? Oh yeah... and then I seen that she actually worked 48 hours in one week!! :O :O :O UMMMMMMMMMMm.... I never EVER did that! NO WAY!!! So what if she charged them ONLY regular time... HULLLOOOO... that is still NOT called for. So... last Saturday... I went in and started to work on my quarterlys. I came across so much stuff... it was just sickening. I spent HOURS... and hours making notes... changing things. If you can only imagine giving somebody authority that had NO clue what to do... that is what I was / am still finding. So... as of Monday... they fired her. The company is without anyone right now. I did do some more interviewing... and I believe we might have found someone. Until then... I told them very clearly... I would way rather go in and do the books at my pace when I can... instead of going in and doing them but ALSO... fixing stuff that she screwed up. They took my advice.

But... my days and stressless is nuts. As an example... today... I got up at 7:30... got to work early for a conference call at UPS... left there late at 3:15... ran to the post office to get the mail for Building Tech... went down there until 4:10... because ya know, payroll IS due tomorrow. Left there then at 4:10... to head to the YMCA... to teach my first class. As you can see... I never even got lunch. So... at 5:30 I ran to get a sandwich. I ate that during the time I was training a new gal for the stability ball class. Then... went to my next class at 6:30... taught until 7:30. From there... I returned to Building Tech to finish my payroll and do my monthly payroll taxes and liabilities. I arrived back home with 5 minutes to spare... until the girls came home. I'm a wreck...

I'd love to just ... go to the bar... Ok... ROFLMAO!!! When 'will' life slow down???

WAY TO GO GIRLS!!!

WOOO HOOO!!! Miranda's ball team is in the 2nd bracket winning right now. They beat the #1 team tonight 18 to 11. :O :O :O YEP... they play again on Thursday. They are pumped. The girls should be. They were in last place... and have moved their way up! It's AWESOME!!! Not a competative bone in my body... ROFLMAO!!! Hee Hee!!!

Man... 5 days gone again already...

Where DOES ... the time go?? I still really need to work on the rest of our vacation days too. :( :( I will find the time... I promise that to myself. :)

Let's see... In looking back... Miranda has played ball several times. She is definitely the 1st baseman. She plays again late tonight. I don't like the late one, but it's not my choice. The girls are enjoying watching her play also... huge difference from last year. :)

I'm back to teaching my normal classes. I needed the break ... but I really missed my students and they DID miss me!!! :) Oh... and I'm trying to figure out a few more classes with my new schedule also. That will probably change when the girls are in school... but I'm letting my director know NOW... so I get MY own spots. :) :)

Last weekend... we did a lot of racing. I was a grease monkey also... gotta love getting my 'hands' on experience. LOL! Friday night he got 2nd... Saturday night he got 2nd... and Sunday he got 6th. He's really doing well. :) This next weekend... he races Friday night and Saturday night. He says that he can 'feel the win'... I hope and pray that I'm there to witness it. :) :) I just know the smile he had on his face after tech on Saturday... brings a smile to my face even now.

Jas, Am, and I will be heading to the lake right after work on Friday. Maybe even early. I need a break... and it will be nice to be there around the campfire... drinking, and chatting. The girls will enjoy playing together. We will probably head home after a full morning / afternoon of boating... to watch him race in town. I feel that I need to be here.

As for me... I'm trying my best to 'focus' on the important things right now. I find myself having to tell myself to STOP... and relax. I know that it will work out... if I give things time. I'm on speed mode though... multi-tasking right now. I just scheduled an interview with another office manager for after lunch tomorrow. Maybe... she will be the right person. Then the training comes into play. I am willing to train the right person... if I can find that right person. :)

I have a NEW JOB!!!

OMG... it has been nearly 11 years since I made a decision like this!!! I'm excited yet... VERY nervous!!! I know that I will be fine... but it's just finishing things here... and trying to find somebody to 'fill' my shoes. YIKES!!! I will NOT leave this company in a mess though. I will not do that... right or wrong...

So... now I am off to learn about shipping! ROFLMAO!!! Well... not really! It will be a nice change. I am so excited about the change in hours... and the long range future with them. That is really what made my final decision. I know that within 4 years... Bob will retire here, and I will NOT work for Roy direct. Sorry... NOT happened. I feel that with the guidance above... this is the right decision right now for the girls and me. :) :) :)

The Test...

I took the 100 question test yesterday. It was something that I attempted to think... WTH will they be asking, but I never ever thought of the items that they DID ask. LOL!!! I survived... even after having a migraine so bad the night before that it put me down. I asked how I would know if I passed it... and he told me that out of the 3 canidates, that the computer would score the tests... and then pass the information off to him. He would then call either last night or this morning... to only one person to offer them the job.

Well.....................

While sitting here yesterday afternoon at work... my cell phone went off. I didn't recognize the phone number because of the area code... but I answered it any way.

It was................. HIM!!! Offering me the job!!! OMG............ :O :O :O :O I really wasn't sure how this was going to turn out. I knew that stepping up to the plate... that it could be a change, but I was going to be me... and see how it turned out. I told him that I needed to think on it. His voice just FELL!!!! He gave me the evening to think... so around 8 pm... I called him back and told him that I would love to be part of their team. I really think that he thought that I was not going to go forward.

BUT... after talking to both owners face to face last night.... they are calling a meeting to try to change my hours to get me to stay. This really isn't a hasty decision... although it might seem that way. I have been looking for something that would give me long range benefits... and this job would be that way. I would be part of a big group... but still running the office on my own like I am here. The times that I've been there... I did feel 'at home'.

So... I'm not sure what will take place... but they are going to 'try'.

Alright ORNERY!!!!

After about 2 minutes of meeting her... I can SOOOOOOO understand why you left Wyoming and left her there. LOL!!! Yep... this is quite the ornery joke... and I'd have to say that YOU did get in the last word. ;-) I love you Bill... and I will never forget how last Friday... you got in the 'How's ornery doing..??' before I could. I even told you that... it wasn't fair. LOL! We had a good hearted laugh. That is a memory that I will hold close to my heart for the rest of my life. So ornery... you certainly pulled a good one on me. I am sure that your up there laughing. Love you... Rest in peace...

Well...

now I'm pretty convinced that this IS... the job for me. :) :) I'm past round two... now to pass round three... which is a 45 to 1 hr test. Cory... the manager that I just met with said to not take the test personally if I do not pass... that it is a tough test. He said that he wouldn't be sure even if he would be able to pass is himself now. LOL!!! I told him... that if I don't pass it... then it's not meant to be. He kind of smiled and said "Yes... that is one way to look at it." He was more indepth on what he wants... considering he would be my only boss. He said that he wants somebody to run the office for him... to actually organize and take orders from. Gosh... I'd love that job. :) :) He seemed VERY open to working the schedule around my girls. THAT... in itself MADE MY DAY!!! Not that I can't do that here... but it's just different with the doors being closed when I'm gone. Now... to take the test and then if I am offered the job... if I decide to leave.

I feel that I have guidance from above... right now. That somebody pretty special is guiding me to this job. I have a lot of things to keep in mind... so this is NOT an easy decision. I am very open minded actually.

AND... the test is scheduled for tomorrow (Friday) at 2:30 pm. Yes... the funeral is tomorrow morning... and Cory said that if my mind is not all clear... to call and he would understand and reschedule. He wants me to have THE best chance at the job. Oh... and as soon as I walked in... he said "Let me tell you this... if you impressed Brad... as you did... and as QUICKLY as you did... you must be one heck of a person... " THAT... made my day. Brad and I did hit it off great. I can seriously see myself in that position for YEARS... to come. :D :D :D

The interview...

went VERY well. Brad (the HR) employee was AWESOME!!! I felt very comofortable... and very relaxed. I figured... what is the worst..?? So... he asked me what my schedule was for the next interview with the manager of the plant. I told him that I was returning to my other job, but would be off for the funeral tomorrow. He asked me if I would be able to fit in an interview today still... and from that point... he used his cell phone and the interview is at 12:15 TODAY :O :O :O :O Yep... I'm headed for round two. LOL!!! I'm pretty excited... and very relaxed at the same time. I'm still NOT convinced that this IS the job for me... considering it is part time... but it would allow me more time with my girls... and I would not have the issue of trying to find jobs to make sure that I have employment here. It will be... if it is right.

I'll edit... on how things go. Brad told me what the next step would be... so I will know if Cory (the manager) likes me or not. LOL!!!